Saturday, January 16, 2010
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Head up, Chest out
To the 친구's who are struggling with the temptations, Keep your fucking head up and chest out. Not to the point that you look like you want to start shit though hahaha. This blog is basically to the senior guys of our church. To Andrew, Ryan, Daniel, Aaron, and Edwin(New member). Alright man I understand how we said we would quit our habits of stoging but everytime we meet up we end up doing the very thing we swore not to do. To me I feel like we all struggle with similar problems besides drugs and violence."We're Brothers"-Edwin. Fuck yeah we're brothers hahaha. I'm not supposed to be engaging in any violence anymore but I'de kill for these motherfuckers haha.(not a good thought but oh well)
In the time of the crisis my two closest homies(bad grammer) told me that they would die for me. If it escalated to that level they said they'd die for me and the other said he would become punisher status and go apeshit on everyone HAHAHAHA It seems a bit extreme but I got them for life.
What I learned was that whatever your struggles are, use it to fuel your passion as a christian. I'm still struggling with this. How can I get closer to God if he put me in the situation I'm in? I don't know the answer to how I can use my problems to fuel my christianity. This Sunday I'm going to sleepover at another church and take my first step into becoming a biblestudy teacher. I honestly don't think I'm fit for the job. haha John Choi told us to prepare a testimony to tell the youth group. Can I reveal my past? The youngsters in our youth group are so innocent and nice so how would they understand what me and andrew went through? If my testimony impacts one person, I will be forever peaceful HAHA
Enjoy: What We have become
In the time of the crisis my two closest homies(bad grammer) told me that they would die for me. If it escalated to that level they said they'd die for me and the other said he would become punisher status and go apeshit on everyone HAHAHAHA It seems a bit extreme but I got them for life.
What I learned was that whatever your struggles are, use it to fuel your passion as a christian. I'm still struggling with this. How can I get closer to God if he put me in the situation I'm in? I don't know the answer to how I can use my problems to fuel my christianity. This Sunday I'm going to sleepover at another church and take my first step into becoming a biblestudy teacher. I honestly don't think I'm fit for the job. haha John Choi told us to prepare a testimony to tell the youth group. Can I reveal my past? The youngsters in our youth group are so innocent and nice so how would they understand what me and andrew went through? If my testimony impacts one person, I will be forever peaceful HAHA
Enjoy: What We have become
Sunday, January 10, 2010
A man plans
What I have to write about has nothing to do with the title ^, it just sounds cool to me.
Not engaging in violence is very hard for me to do. I need an alternative way to let my hate out. I'm going to explode on someone one day and I dont know how far i'll take it -_-
Dinner at Pho with Pastor ben:
We are taking the step needed to start up our own EM. Starting this Sunday we will be "trained" or whatever to become biblestudy teachers. We're going to make our own praise team too =) with help from Hana Church =)
Not engaging in violence is very hard for me to do. I need an alternative way to let my hate out. I'm going to explode on someone one day and I dont know how far i'll take it -_-
Dinner at Pho with Pastor ben:
We are taking the step needed to start up our own EM. Starting this Sunday we will be "trained" or whatever to become biblestudy teachers. We're going to make our own praise team too =) with help from Hana Church =)
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Chance
At retreat the speaker, Anna, said that our issues or problems either fuel our passion with Christ or it'll fuel hatred and pain. For me I feel as if the only time God is present is when my life is at a crisis. The only time i realize that god loves me is when im in a state of drunkenness or high off other drugs. Its either that or other struggles that I have that impacts my life a lot. Why is it that I need a crisis or have to be under the influence to realize how empty my life is. In bible study today the senior guys and girls got in a circle and we shared our problems/what we learned at the retreat. Me along with everyone else thought of each other as family so we opened up with no hesitation. Some tears were dropped from some of them. As corrupted as we all seem, whatever problem we had during the week, it seems to disappear when we're together. It's amazing how He works so quick. He challenged me with what seems to me the biggest choice or turning point in my life. The choice is simple but the task ahead of me will be something that I can't deal with alone. I will always have Christ by me. I don't know what will really happen, It can result with my life at risk along with my friends and family, or the outcome can be nothing happens. Tomorrow is where my new life starts, whatever happens I know His presense is there.
Its funny how one fight can change your whole life. For me it was a stupidass orange beign thrown at me, which resulted in me getting kicked out of the safest school. After that my life went downhill. I should write a damn book about how my life changed after that day haha. it will be titled "The life changing orange " or something hahaha some people mgiht not get that but if you know then you know haha.
My bible study teacher John Choi is like another father to me and also a Brother. Without him and VKCPC , I would be how I used to be: reckless, filled with hate. He told me to make a vow to join God's way. All I need to say is that I will do whatever he asks of me. The question is SO simple but it is the most straight foward a question can be. Ask yourself What would Jesus Do?
That phrase is overused and played out but it has become my favorite. W.W.J.D!! haha
I have been given another challenge or task by God. It is to become a bible study teacher myself. I am going to become a biblestudy teacher to the upcoming 6th graders. Can I do it? At retreat , when I was assigned to be group leader I took the opportunity to get to know my kids. They have so much potential and unrevealed passion towards God. Pastor ben told us the little kids look up to us older boys. When I think about that, it also gives me motivation to change myself. What would the middle school kids think if they always smell smoke on us? The way we dress impacts them also. If they look up to us then we have to take that into consideration and set them straight. I can only be a guide to lead them to the path God paved for them. I can only push them so far towards that path and let God take care of the rest. The next time I'm about to take a hit out of that blunt, or cigarette, a sip of alcohol, or I'm about to pop the pill, I need to realize thats not the kind of life a christian should live. Obviously its not something you would want to look up to either. hahaha
Guide me to the path you paved for me.
Its funny how one fight can change your whole life. For me it was a stupidass orange beign thrown at me, which resulted in me getting kicked out of the safest school. After that my life went downhill. I should write a damn book about how my life changed after that day haha. it will be titled "The life changing orange " or something hahaha some people mgiht not get that but if you know then you know haha.
My bible study teacher John Choi is like another father to me and also a Brother. Without him and VKCPC , I would be how I used to be: reckless, filled with hate. He told me to make a vow to join God's way. All I need to say is that I will do whatever he asks of me. The question is SO simple but it is the most straight foward a question can be. Ask yourself What would Jesus Do?
That phrase is overused and played out but it has become my favorite. W.W.J.D!! haha
I have been given another challenge or task by God. It is to become a bible study teacher myself. I am going to become a biblestudy teacher to the upcoming 6th graders. Can I do it? At retreat , when I was assigned to be group leader I took the opportunity to get to know my kids. They have so much potential and unrevealed passion towards God. Pastor ben told us the little kids look up to us older boys. When I think about that, it also gives me motivation to change myself. What would the middle school kids think if they always smell smoke on us? The way we dress impacts them also. If they look up to us then we have to take that into consideration and set them straight. I can only be a guide to lead them to the path God paved for them. I can only push them so far towards that path and let God take care of the rest. The next time I'm about to take a hit out of that blunt, or cigarette, a sip of alcohol, or I'm about to pop the pill, I need to realize thats not the kind of life a christian should live. Obviously its not something you would want to look up to either. hahaha
Guide me to the path you paved for me.
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Winter Reteat 09
I'm glad that I went to VKCPC's winter retreat. At first I was disgusted of the bathrooms with no doors, shower with no hot water, and having to sleep in the main sanctuary with ALL the guys. BUT I didn't even care about those what so ever.The reason was because I was with my brothers and sisters in christ and such things like not being able to shower in cold water didn't matter to me.
I had no idea of the challenge I was about to be faced with. The seniors boys and older girls in our church were assigned to a group to be a group leader. I have never had my own group before and on top of that my group is usually the one that never participates in activities. We had a co-ed group leadership. The other group leader was Ashley Kim. We butt-heads every now and then but minor shit haha even though we had our own shit from the past, for the sake of the group we forgave each other. and THANK GOD I had ryan in my group, one year younger but a big help to QT's.(oh yeah and the group leaders had to lead in QT and I'm not that good in interpreting stuff.)BUT i tried hahaha
So we played games over the next few days. The first was capture the flag. haha It was a failed plan because there was at least 22 people on each team and the jail was so close to the boundary line. The next game was the dreadful RELAY RACE. And my groups name was CIA which stands for Christians in Action!! i thought of that >:] but the idea originated from Hanaro's retreat shirt a while back. So we were up first for the relay race.
1st station: we had to right each others names on their hand with a marker in our mouth. But we finished that fast.
2nd station: blindfolded and we had to organize by age and then by alphabetical order.The hardest was to make a triangle but we had two members who can see through their shirts so that was easy HAHA.
3rd station: sharades- we chose the hard movie which was paranormal activity. Our motion for that was retarded HAHAHA but we still got it at the end.
4th station: Finish half a watermelon as fast as you can so we dug into it and were lagging it kind of haha.
5th station ( worst station): It was to choose and eat the stack of babyfood. So I took the one with green,brown, and some other color.
I ended up eating the peas.I took a handful and stuck it in my mouth. OMG I was about to die. I didn't finish it so i gave it to my other group member and they pass it around. It gets back to me and it was the same as i left it before. NO ONE at any of it. So i ended up finishing it, nastiest shieett ever.
Overall retreat was awesome.The last night I had the time to talk and catch up with a good friend. We both have similar problems and it was nice to talk to someone who understands. haha VKCPC youth group is Family. My brothers and sisters of christ. Like Pastor Ben said,"I have never seen a congregation or youth group that is so much like a family." And that goes for me too. I'm glad to be a part of this family and I thank God every time I think about it.
TO JANE:
My deal was that No cigs,drugs,fighting until Jan.2010. haha I'm sorry but I think I broke cigs many times before and during the retreat. But I was thinking because my pastor told me that the kids under us look up to us and that the senior boys will hopefully become biblestudy teachers next year. So I was thinking to quit at New years instead of my break being over and starting to smoke again after new years.
I had no idea of the challenge I was about to be faced with. The seniors boys and older girls in our church were assigned to a group to be a group leader. I have never had my own group before and on top of that my group is usually the one that never participates in activities. We had a co-ed group leadership. The other group leader was Ashley Kim. We butt-heads every now and then but minor shit haha even though we had our own shit from the past, for the sake of the group we forgave each other. and THANK GOD I had ryan in my group, one year younger but a big help to QT's.(oh yeah and the group leaders had to lead in QT and I'm not that good in interpreting stuff.)BUT i tried hahaha
So we played games over the next few days. The first was capture the flag. haha It was a failed plan because there was at least 22 people on each team and the jail was so close to the boundary line. The next game was the dreadful RELAY RACE. And my groups name was CIA which stands for Christians in Action!! i thought of that >:] but the idea originated from Hanaro's retreat shirt a while back. So we were up first for the relay race.
1st station: we had to right each others names on their hand with a marker in our mouth. But we finished that fast.
2nd station: blindfolded and we had to organize by age and then by alphabetical order.The hardest was to make a triangle but we had two members who can see through their shirts so that was easy HAHA.
3rd station: sharades- we chose the hard movie which was paranormal activity. Our motion for that was retarded HAHAHA but we still got it at the end.
4th station: Finish half a watermelon as fast as you can so we dug into it and were lagging it kind of haha.
5th station ( worst station): It was to choose and eat the stack of babyfood. So I took the one with green,brown, and some other color.
I ended up eating the peas.I took a handful and stuck it in my mouth. OMG I was about to die. I didn't finish it so i gave it to my other group member and they pass it around. It gets back to me and it was the same as i left it before. NO ONE at any of it. So i ended up finishing it, nastiest shieett ever.
Overall retreat was awesome.The last night I had the time to talk and catch up with a good friend. We both have similar problems and it was nice to talk to someone who understands. haha VKCPC youth group is Family. My brothers and sisters of christ. Like Pastor Ben said,"I have never seen a congregation or youth group that is so much like a family." And that goes for me too. I'm glad to be a part of this family and I thank God every time I think about it.
TO JANE:
My deal was that No cigs,drugs,fighting until Jan.2010. haha I'm sorry but I think I broke cigs many times before and during the retreat. But I was thinking because my pastor told me that the kids under us look up to us and that the senior boys will hopefully become biblestudy teachers next year. So I was thinking to quit at New years instead of my break being over and starting to smoke again after new years.
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